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Character Name: Tsubomi Kido
Age: 16
Species: Human
Canon: Kagerou Project
Canon Point: From the Kisaragi Attention/Blindfold Code arc of the manga
Character Info: Kagerou Wiki
Personality:
Kido puts a lot of effort into being strong, being reliable to her friends, and being the leader. But that's really what it is--the qualities aren't necessarily innate, she has to put effort into it. Kido has proven herself to be just as frightened, and often just as lost, as anyone else in the Mekakushi-dan, but she acts like she has it together because that's her job--because she is No. 1.

Her grand personal motivation is to disappear, to remain unnoticed, to avoid the discomfort she experienced as a child, as the illegitimate daughter in a family full that emotionally and verbally abused her. Outside of her friends, she likes to be ignored for the most part, blending in with the crowd. Thanks to her eye ability, she is completely capable of making this literal, but it wasn't always such an easy ride. When she was young, she couldn't control it and her desire to hide from others became a fear of actually disappearing. For her dislike of the spotlight, however, Kido is the kind of person who wants to be reliable and responsible. She took on the mantle of the leader between her, Kano and Seto after Ayano's death. She desired to become stronger to be able to care for her adoptive brothers, and this determination is what pushed her into the role.

Kido's personality can come off as emotionless, rough or even cruel or angry to an outsider. As a child, her anger came out clear when someone she loved was hurt, making her somewhat scary to her brothers, though she loved them both dearly. Growing up, it's turned into more of an emotionless mask. She seems cool and distant, but in reality, Kido is afraid. When Seto ran away as a child and found Marry, her concern for both him and Ayano (who had worried to tears when he couldn't be found) came through angry texts and threats against his well being. Older, now, and having experienced amounts of loss that no human should ever have to experience, Kido's facade has faded from anger to apathy. When speaking with Konoha about the Daze, Kido admits that a child who entered and never exited can't be saved. It isn't that she doesn't want to save her, or that she isn't upset about Hiyori's death, but the fact that she has had to come to terms with the fact that sometimes there are things you just can't do as you are. Her emotionless facade isn't who she truly is--the loss of her friends, the death of those around her, still hurts her every bit as much as any other person. At the end of the Blindfold Code/Kisaragi Attention loop in the manga, she still clung to Kano's body as much as anyone would, and she was the first to truly react to his death. She's every bit as vulnerable as she doesn't want others to believe.

Kido is often frightened and uses music as a way to keep herself preoccupied, plugging headphones in when she went into a haunted house, which angered Shintaro (she dragged him along because she was afraid to go in alone). Even though it was clear on the roller coaster she was absolutely terrified, she insisted to Kano that she was fine. Kano himself spends a great deal of canon harassing and teasing her, which lets out her violent side--he's very much her punching bag. He knows everything to say and do to get on her nerves, and she grows frazzled when things don't go according to plan. Though she's kind to those around her, the best way to know how close you are to her is the way she expresses herself around you--if she lets herself get angry or flustered or freaked out, or has any real emotional response on a regular basis, you've wormed your way into her heart.

Kido is more perceptive than she sometimes lets on, knowing exactly what to say to cheer Momo up when she finds her running from a crowd. And she knows Kano's illusions are sometimes harmful--she's perfectly content to him back to his true self by punching him in the gut. She's brutally honest with Seto, sometimes acting meaner or angrier than she really is because he used to be a woob who couldn't figure out they love him. She's kind to Marry, but doesn't necessarily coddle her. To Shintaro and Konoha, she's friendly and welcoming. This is where her efforts pay off--Kido doesn't have to pretend to be a good leader. She is one. She's not great at charging into battle, but she's good at keeping the dan together and caring for them. And that's what they need--everyone in the dan was affected by Ayano's death. Charging into battle was Ayano's greatest mistake, even if it does save them in the end. Kido won't do that. She won't put herself or others at risk needlessly, because she has lost everything. Her biological family, her adoptive mother, her adoptive father's love, and her adoptive sister. To put others through loss or lose others is not her prerogative. Kido is careful. She plays defense, though that sometimes means standing between her loved ones and danger. That is something that requires no effort on her part. Kido cares deeply for those she lets in, no matter how rare they are, and above even her own comfort, she wants to keep them safe.

☆INTERSTELLAR

Genre Preferences: Rock, Indie, Pop
Choice Instrument: Bass, synth, guitar (back up specifically if that's okay)
Rockstar Persona: Tsubomi's stoic. Androgynous and attractive in a way, she's a mystery. And bassists, aside from generally getting ignored, are pretty mysterious people.
She grew up with a wealthy family, but they were emotionally distant from her. They wanted her to follow in the footsteps of her father, a businessman, or her mother, a housewife. But she kind of said screw that and picked up an instrument that either strayed from the classics or had a modern twist, for the most part, in order to piss them off.
She's a little bit of a rebel, too.
But it turned out she was pretty good with music, you know? She played alone for a long time. Her parents kept her away from other musicians hoping to stomp it out of her. They're kinda jerks, you know? So she ran away at fourteen. She hopped around from place to place.
Kido's much more confident in this brainwashing. Her mystery, her isolation, isn't from fear or communicative difficulties or anything. She just doesn't like people much. She hangs in the background because she knows excessive success would put her on her parents' radar. And she wants to avoid that because she wants to avoid being seen as their version of successful. She maintains her gender ambiguity out of both defiance and comfort with the concept. She's less likely to be preyed upon if people don't think she's a girl, especially at the age she's at. She has zero interest in rising to fame as a cute girl.
Ideal CR: Kido's the kind of person who's a leader, who needs people to take care of and give her some kind of importance. She's also pretty much Team Mom in canon. She thrives on responsibility, on being the person who knows how to function when others don't, even though she's a hikiNEET with a communication disorder. In this route I'd like her to have a softer side. The side that smacks someone upside the head to get her point across that she was worried. So I'd like to shove her with a bunch of idiots that she can try to take care of (poorly) if that's feasible.

Writing Sample: thread with castmate from cosmos